One way to say it, I suppose, is that my relationship with myself is less vocal now than in times past. I'm not one to have a plan. I don't often ask myself why. The whole why thing just makes me tired. Everything is just an understanding I have with myself, and I've learned to trust my motivations. It saves time and effort. So, these days, I just trust that there is some reason for the things I choose to do and I trust that it is a good reason. If I wanted to do so, I could suffer through the painstaking labor of vocalizing the reasons for the things I do. There are reasons. I believe it. I just don't know how to describe them. That's all.